Occult Academy has a weird ending music image

So I re-watched Occult Academy because I love the TV show. It's about friendship, love, jealousy and then redemption. It's everything I wish my life consisted of. The occult realm already seems to hover over me...I just miss my good witch friends to help keep me connected to this flawed world....Wonder how they are doing...

But what's the deal with the ending tune's image of a little Asian girl and boy laying very still in the grass? It's eery and unsettling. I feel like they died and then lived in a parallel universe where the occult academy story takes place. And what is the deal with Maya's dad building her the academy? So she only exists in this city because the university is like her connection to this world?

Mmmmmmmm, Well anyways, it was/is a great show. The mini stories within the big story all touch up on what it means to belong, be human, have feelings for another human and how to redeem your humanity when you have messed up. Good show, I highly recommend it.

Yoshinaga-san'Chi No Gargoyle is pretty insightful with their mini stories

http://sockshare.net/watch/vMpraq1d-yoshinaga-san-chi-no-gargoyle/episode-7.html

How many anime touch the topic of trauma or ptsd? This one does.
For simple anime animation I can say that I've never met such kindhearted anime characters in any realm of my imagination. The gargoyle that protects the main character is loving and patient. The main character is a cute, tomboyish little girl who has a sensitive, meek brother. I love how it showcases different aspects of humanity without being too cheesy or cliche. When I was growing up I was a sometimes, loud, obnoxious child full of questions. When I didn't get my way sometimes I would loudly pout, stomp my feet and even throw a tantrum. That kind of attitude did not agree with my folks and a smack on the butt or a time-out would reset me back to my decency but that was all a normal part of growing up.

Anyways I like this show. It's not cliche and its still family friendly and good-hearted even though it touches upon serious matter at times.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yoshinaga-san_Chi_no_Gargoyle

Redline = Easy on the eyes linear, detailed art

Drawing by: Click

Redline is not really my type of movie. That's why I decided to watch it, I am trying to expand my horizons.
I love the detailed, over-proportioned limbs and hand art. I love the thick black lines encircling the scenes and characters.

Story-wise? Eh. It's cool. Redline makes me think of a flat red line in the hospital but the movie isn't about this at all....
This is deff more of a macho, protagonist hero kind of story for people who like that vintage, classic story type. The art is fantastic though. I love how weird and strange and yet humanistic the characters are. 

Idk. Nothing else to say here really.

Summer Wars anime movie was awesome and cool

What I thought while watching this movie and my analyses:

Kazuma reminds me of a Mexican/Native American or some tan friend I used to have...Maybe still have if he hasn't forgotten about me the way I did....I can't help not knowing because of all the accidents that have interrupted my brain and timeline at times...
He reminds me of someone that was mean to me, but not mean in a "I want to hurt you" kind of way, but more like "don't bother me" sort of way. And being surrounded by men who wanted to touch me, woo me, date me, grope me etc....I liked his don't bother me attitude more because it worked with my "I don't want to be bothered or touched" mood. After a while of living in his house, or near him we became friends. Kazuma's expression is almost identical to his...I just don't remember his name but I remember his face somewhat....It pains me not to remember everything fully but I know he was a good person and this fact alone makes me miss my friend.

This movie is amazing. It's so full of life and humanity. It also is full of abstract mental goodies! It's also such a thorough slice of Japanese life cartoon that I loved watching the background environment that depicts Japanese style and flavor. It's also easy to see/follow what the Grandma was thinking when she snapped and tried to hurt her step-grandson. She couldn't bare the thought of the world's chaos being tied to her because Japanese folks are a very proud, honorable people. It also makes sense that she didn't really want to hurt him because she loved him but she was just ashamed for him and herself that he had made this grave error in judgement to try and help out the family with money. The animators and storyboard writers really know how to explain different mindsets and showcase their culture's life through animation. These people are incredibly talented, I think they are some of the best animators of our time! 

Also it was incredibly interesting to view the different abstract concepts that were subtly introduced in the anime. Like, for example:
1) Was the world descending into chaos because the baseball star was playing badly or was he playing badly because the world was melting into a mess?
2) One person can affect the world but the world also affects each of us differently and individually.
3) Motivation might be made up of small, white, good lies but that's okay because when cheering people up it does have to do with what they want/need to hear and not what reality has already hurt them with. Positive pick me-ups are invaluable and necessary.
4) Each of us have a large network of people we carry with us that can influence us/we can influence them vice versa etc
5) Japanese people are more aware of traumatic, dangerous catastrophes and are sensitive to what if-scenarios because they have already seen a very dark/gory side to humans during the world wars. This is why the illustrators are not afraid to think outside the box, showcasing what could happen might inspire others to keep this from happening.
6) When tragedy strikes people band together. Kazuma's family reminded me of my Canadian family. I miss my family in Canada, it's also a very large and sometimes obnoxious bunch lol
7) I love how it showed how anxious the heroes were in the movie. Being a hero is not easy. Caring about the future of your family, yourself, the world is not easy. Also when everything goes wrong, your brain taps into what I call an "I need you God right now" mode and no matter what you just cannot help but pray and God answers. I don't care if your a Christian, atheist or a believer of another religion when you need that extra ounce of hope we-humans turn to God and he delivers. The movie shows this several times when the characters are almost frozen in fear in a very touchy, scary situation. That extra ounce of hope can come from external sources like family, random strangers etc but regardless of how its delivered-it gets delivered. 

I also loved how this movie portrayed a near futuristic future so realistically. Even if our technology is super advanced and we are all connected online, it won't take away some of the more traditional things in human life like family meeting, tradition, houses and memories.

I really loved this movie. I think everyone should watch this Summer Wars movie. Towards the end I cried and it felt good to know that my humanity is still alive. I was scared for the female protagonist when she was playing the Koi game, I didn't want her to loose and even though I knew she had to win it was still scary to think that she might not. I had genuine anxiety waiting to see what would happen and it felt great to worry about someone else for a change.

The Garden of Words is good but I can't really empathize with it

This movie, The Garden of Words was awesome for just one reason. It reminded me of the way I used to think when I was 17 years old. I was always in my head. My thoughts drifted with the clouds, high above the ground and always scanned for the future ahead.
I miss being 17. When I was 17 I had a family and tons of friends but I never felt like I belonged with them. I got along with older people because their lives excited me about my own future possibilities, and the people my age didn't quite care about the future...
It's weird but-the more you think about something, the less likely it happens. My life rule used to be, think about it, believe it, act towards it and it will happen. But I started caring so much, and started being so good at predicting my own future that somewhere along the way people became jealous and killed this life rule of mine.
Now it seems like the rule is don't think about it, don't plan ahead and eventually you will find yourself there and be able to enjoy the moment. If I think about it too much I don't end up enjoying the present.
And yet I remember being 17, feeling like an outcast and yet not really being as much of an outcast as I thought....but I do love being alone in my mind... I remember being in love with my mind then as well. I could silently sit in a corner, inside myself and stare at the thoughts whizzing past me. My own little world. I found freedom inside my mind and no one was ever able to enter it quite the way I do. I miss being free and I miss my state of mind. I don't think I can truly be Jennifer without this.

Also the movie reminded me of Charlie my ex-boyfriend. He reminded me of the immature male protagonist in the anime. The whole time I am thinking I wish I could sit around and do nothing, say nothing and only enjoy the company of a friendly person my age....Keyword: My age. Till I found out that the other protagonist, the teacher was way older than the kid and somehow they fell in love with each other....Eh. I remember being young but when I fell in love with my teacher I wasn't that young. I was like 19.
Idk. I was never much for emotional outbursts without directions. When I am volatile everyone knows why. I tell people and I give them warning signs before I explode. I don't just get angry and walk away and somehow hope that my lover will run after me because they care enough to become mind readers for my sake. It's great when people can be mind readers but you don't have to be in order to understand me because I tell you exactly how I feel and where I stand on issues and in life.
No. I am not like Charlie. I am not a volatile, immature child. I never was. I know now that what he needed was someone like the teacher in the movie but that's not really my personality. It's one thing to have one or two emotional outburst a month, but Charlie had them a few times a week. I wasn't raised in this manner. If I couldn't justify my emotions I would get a beating and a time-out. I wasn't allowed to just get angry because I felt angry. I had to have a reason. It also does not matter what state of mind I have and what psychiatry drugs I am on, I am still not allowed to have a random emotional break down just because I am affected by people, events and happenings around me. Those were never good reasons for outbursts in my family and in my world. My first love and my teacher understood this, but Charlie did not even though he stated he understood, he really didn't understand me.


So Idk about being able to fully empathize with the movie The Garden of Words. I feel like the movie is about a pubescent teen turning on the cusp of being an adult who has mommy issues and wants/needs the approval of a beautiful older, smart woman in order to be able to fully evolve into the young man he is meant to be. I can't really relate with this but-
The movie is beautifully animated though. I always wonder what makes animated cartoons better than real people. Is it the simple fact that the animation is more aesthetically appealing or is it because things are drawn in a simpler way and so easier on the mind? Either way it was easy to watch. I loved how every panel was a work of digital art. I love when anime takes their time on the scenic panels. I hope to be able to draw like this someday.

A sketch to help me understand why, who, what

I am thinking of illustrating another manga. But I am not sure of the concept yet. Maybe if I write down all the ideas surrounding this concept I can organize my thoughts and figure out how to proceed with all this new information.

Sometimes I know where I want to go with a certain story idea but then a new piece of information will deviate me from this story and make me think of another story idea. I have so many ideas that they tend to blend together unless I sit down and manually organize my thoughts.

What if once upon a time ago a girl saved someone. Then she gained a friend but then she accidentally made him angry and for a while there was blood raining down from the sky. Then the misunderstanding got cleared up and the person and her became friends again. Then there was love. Maybe not directly with this person but everyone had love and everything seemed pretty okay.
Then dead bodies started showing up again and the girl wants to understand if this is all in her mind, or what if these bodies are not even real and someone is playing a mean sort of prank maybe they are latex/special effects stuff. And if it is a prank-who is responsible and why? or Is her friend the killer? If he is her friend then why is he putting gory stuff like this in her room? Why does he want her to see this stuff? Or why is he even chopping people up in the first place? What does that have to do with her? Is he killing people to keep her alive? Is it someone she knows or is friends with? Is it someone else? Why does she have to store this in her mind? Why did this all stop in the first place and why is it back? Is this regulated? Why would doctors and guards not do anything if they knew about it? What does it all mean? Why her? Why doesn't this stuff happen to someone else?

Maybe this could be a psychological thriller mystery manga....

Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children seems to have been taken straight out of my mind

When I watched  Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children movie today all I could think was...
1. Didn't I have a dream about this/these scenarios before?
2. Did I write this book and someone stole the manuscript?
3. When I was a child my brother and I got lost exploring once-probably more than once honestly...
4. Didn't I discover a church too when I was a child? Or was it my brother?
5. Didn't I scare everyone once when they wonder where the heck I had been all day? Or was it my brother?
6. Did I find my brother alone by the church once or did he find me or did I run back and tell everyone I had time-traveled to a different section or time?
7. I remember running back home and being like MOM-DAD!! I met these amazing people blah blah blah
8. I have a crazy, vivid, powerful imagination.
9. This is the power of ________.
 10. Was I in a coma and did someone build  me a mental arena where I explored places and had to make decisions that impacted the world when I snapped out of it? 
11. in the dream-world I got tired of saving the world once and I decided to run back to Emma to live with her forever.
12. My brother or me befriended dead kids or spirits. 
13. Nature can hear my thoughts.
14. Loops. I've used that term before....Gotta find all the loops to find the best timeline!
15. This movie is just  bunch of my dreams stitched together...Minus the bad people and the eating eyes thing.


Idk. I was too distracted by how creepy and realistic the movie was to my childhood isolation daydreams that I couldn't enjoy it fully. It was a good movie. I love how the main character is humanly creeped out by some of the children at first, and how he pushes past this fact to get to know them and befriend them. I love how human that is. It's not easy being open minded sometimes but what if you had a mouth in the back of your head and had never encountered another boy your age? How would you feel if you knew you were different but all you wanted was a friend anyways?
The boys and girls deserve respect. They are humans too and I am glad the protagonist of the story overcomes prejudice and the conventional feeling of wanting to surround himself only with normal people in order to make new stranger friends.